Daniel Henney Sarang <3

this is so gay but I love it albeit.

Look, my 'boys' are wearing the same jacket!. Haha.

and I melted when I saw this:

haha. isn't my Daniel really really adorable? <3 haha.

**by the way, credits to this community

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah. This makes me plan to go to South Korea someday. I heard Destiny Cable has KBS Channel--Daniel's network; might as well subscribe to that. Haha. When I earn na. :) Some people here would just find that idea unreasonable. Haha.

Oh my. Oh my. I've never been this crazed before. Aaaaaah. Daniel's so dreamy!

So EAGER to Launch

I desperately want to move out of this house. As in. Okay, I'm getting back to this stage again. The last time I experienced this thing, I found no excuse to move out [well of course way back that time, I was just starting my senior high school year]. Now, I'm going to college--to a very [well, not realy very] far university in the heart of the capital. This situation actually offers a great, reasonable excuse for me to move out and start living a great single life. But no, I was wrong. They're hindering me, stopping me and they actually want to confine me in this multiple cornered home I've been.

A lot of people who have heard my idea of condorm-ing said that it might be difficult. They always say that the mere fact that I have to do all the housework [cleaning, cooking, laundry] makes it very difficult. Well maybe yes, it will be difficult but I think I'm already used with those things. Living a life where maids and househelpers are very useless, I think I have already trained myself to do those things; well of course, except for the laundry because the automatic washing machine does that for us. I won't take any reason for me not to like moving out as of this moment--because I really want to. And if you're thinking of the safety of the place [well because Manila proper is not really the ideal place to live in], well let's not mind that, let me die if I should when that time comes.

What's driving me to these ideas? Well, if I tell you the whole story, probably you'll suggest that I just stab all the people here, including the canine dog sleeping right now. It's simple: I don't want to live with people who never saw nice things in me. I don't want to live with people who always blame me for every stupid/wrong/bad/unfortunate thing that happens. Like come one, was I born to be blamed for everything bad? I don't think so. Another thing, I don't want living with people who always tell me to change. Change. Change. Change. Actually, I really want to start a change. I want to start it with YOU but you keep on stopping me.

Since you always say that I'm a big burden and all you want to do is spend time with your 10-year-old son who I believe is gay, then why not send me out and we'd be both happy. Wouldn't it be nice if this plan pushes through? It will be; at least in my part.

Welcome, lovely February! :) &hearts

Parental Issues

It's just dismaying to know that my parents do not really trust me after all.

One of my friends told me that she might be occupying a condorm [condo/dorm hehe] unit near UST and she asked me if I want to share with her together with some friends. I liked the idea, of course; knowing that UST is really quite far from my place and I hate waking up very early for classes so I told my mom. They disagreed.

Para ano? Makalakwatsa?
Saan ka naman nakakita ng taga Quezon City na nag-dorm pa dyan lang sa España.

Diyan lang sa España. Wow. Diyan lang pala ha. Sige nga, ihatid niyo ako at sunduin araw-araw. Tignan natin kung di kayo magngitngit niyan dahil sa layo.

It's clear. They don't have faith in me. They think that I just want to move out because I'm excited of getting in to the real world--college that is. Probably they think in college, I'll be meeting someone, get a boyfriend, hang-out with him all day, all night long and have weird yet great sex in that condorm. Yes, that's what they think. Great.

Kinalaunan niyan, sa takot at hiya kong magpakilala sa kanila ng isang tao kahit na matanda na ako, eh hindi pa ako mag-aasawa niyan. Kawawa naman ako. :(

They want me to kill my social life. And take note, sinumbat pa nila sa'kin 'yung gimmicks ko. What the hey. I started gimmicking at 14, when I was in sophomore high. Come on, did I do something wrong? I'm still here, on the way to college, not pregnant, not high on drugs or something.

I'm so irritated now. I'm not irritated because I wasn't allowed to dorm.
I'm mad because they don't trust me.

Kung kelan pa ako tumanda, doon pa ako hinigpitan.

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Our recollection's on Sunday. Yes, this Sunday.
Give me a palanca, please. :)
Thank you very much. :)

Ayoko nang sumablay

I still have to get through 2 more stages before I finally get in.
I'm pretty confident with the 2nd stage but
I fear that I my credentials may not be enough for the 3rd stage.

Oh, please. If there really is a God above there, help me. I'm begging you.
I want everything in place now.

Please lang, ayoko nang sumablay pa. Nakakapagod na.

Anyway, I just found out that my calculator isn't with me now. At first I thought I just misplaced it here in the house but I recalled that I never brought it out since that last day before fair. It turns out that some bitch, some crazy bitch deliberately stole it. Way back junior year, there was a series of disappearance of calculators and they said some crazy girl was doing it and I didn't believe them; since mine was with me. Now I know, someone really steals calculators. You're pulling my leg, huh? Great job. No one knows how bad I feel whenever I lose my school things. Take note, I just lost a very important school thing. Fcuking shit. I was so eager to go home a while ago, thinking that my calculator would just be in my room, here in my home; but it's not.

Here are the possible reasons for my calculator's sudden disappearance:

• somebody borrowed it and forgot to return it.
• somebody stole it

Please, please, return it to me now! I really feel bad. It's like losing your K9 dog. Arrrrgh!

Kung nakanino man yung calculator ko ngayon, fcuking bullshit, magkakaroon ka ng galis-aso kasi malikot yang kamay mo, ayaw mo pa ibalik. GRRRRRR. Feel my wrath, I hate you!

Mamatay na lahat ng kuko sa paa, wag lang ako mawalan ng gamit. :(
Alam ko lonely na 'yung calculator ko kasi demoñita na yung humahawak sa kanya.
Yeah, shit.

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I just checked this guy's profile on Friendster tapos ang nabasa ko:
Interested in: Dating Women.

Ooooooooooooookay.

Okay, I got to shut up. :|

Daniel Henney! <3

An old classmate texted me this morning: Heyah! Musta na? Sana blockmates tayo sa UP! He said he saw my name in the list [BA Sociology daw] when he went to check at UP. Of course I didn't believe him since it has already sunk in to me that I didn't pass. Baka yun lang din 'yung akala ko na ako kasi Anne Clarisse Reyes yung name. So baka false alarm lang katulad nung sa Ateneo na inaway ko pa 'yung isa kong kaibigan kasi bwiset. The funny thing there is, sana blockmates tayo! Wahahaha. Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Okay, shut up. :|

Lagi nalang niyo ako niloloko pag dating sa mga ganyan! Hindi na ako magpapaloko at aasa ngayon. WAHAHAHAHAHA. Gusto ko na sa UST. Gusto ko na. Wag niyo baguhin yung isip ko, okay? :) Maybe the God has a better plan for me there. ULK. Haha. Siguraduhin lang niya. Hahahaha. :)

I'm hooked on Spring Waltz again--for the third time this is! hahaha. :)




..and meet my boyfriend, Daniel Henney. <3 hahahaha. :D Aaaaaaaaaaaah. One year now. Haha. :D Okay, wag nang patulan. :D

Bound to be there

There's no turning back. I'm entering UST for college. The course? Guess what: BS NURSING. I don't know what was I thinking when I wrote BS Nursing in my 1st choice course in my UST application. And I actually feel dismayed that I'm only waitlisted in my 2nd choice course: BS MEDTECH. That's the course I really want to get in! I should have put it in my first choice and maybe I'd get accepted there, not only waitlisted. Hay nako. Ang weird. I'm sure there are more people vying for a slot in BS Nursing than in Medtech, and why did I not get in? Waitlisted pa eh noh, UST na nga lang eh. Ang bobo, nakakaawa.

Person 1: don't feel bad, okay lang yan kahit Nursing ka kasi UST naman eh. hindi naman FEU, Fatima at kung saan saan dyan.
Person 2: ano ka ba. may standards ang UST nursing. bawal ang panget at pandak dun. [hanep, nanglait pa siya noh]
Person 3: alam mo ba sa UP Manila, bulok dun. [oo nga, naisip ko rin. pero UP pa rin yun!]

I'm actually okay with Nursing since I'm not taking it for my future career--I'm taking it as my pre-med course. Well aside from Medtech, it's the most ideal pre-med course since the lessons are very very close. The only reason why I don't like it is because people stereotyped Nursing students as students na ang tingin sa Nursing ay isang malaking hanapbuhay na maghahatid ng instant yaman. Wow, parang gusto ko na talaga mag-nurse sa abroad para naman yumaman ako agad. WAHAHAHAHA. JOKE LANG. DI KO GAGAWIN YUN. Okay, Clarissa, sinasabi mo lang 'yan kasi ayaw mong madismaya kasi mukhang sa UST ka na talaga. Wag ka na.

Okay, enough. Let's just see what will happen with my UP reconsideration then I'll choose which is better.

Peace SHoutS was actually quite uneventful and very very very boring. I enjoyed the Chubibo though. First time kong sumakay ng ride na mukhang tataob sa oras na humampas ang malakas na hangin. Every time we'd see rides like the Chubibo, my parents would always tell me not to ride rides of such kind because it's very dangerous. Well, I'm big now. I rode the chubibo 3 times! Haha. My last ride, enjoy talaga! Don't ask why. Haha. :)

The Baila was nice. But I think there are already too many members. I'm not impressed to the Aglaia and Pep now as I was impressed to them before. One thing, they seem to be very plenty in the group [Aglaia and Pep]. Second thing, it's like they accepted everyone else who auditioned. Baka ako kung nag-audition sa Aglaia pasok din. Haha. LOKO LANG. Baka may isang taong baduy dyan na seryosohin 'to tas lumikha ng issue. Haha.

The Bandaid was too expensive! Freefall lang na-enjoy ko eh. Sana sinama na rin nila pati Dalandan Soda para mas masaya talaga eh. I thought it would be actually nice since the theme for this year is Retro music. Aba, I was so wrong. There were bands na sobrang binaboy 'yung kanta ng Beatles. What happened to Strawberry Fields Forever when the 2nd to the last band played it? Jusko. Please lang, wag niyo nang ulitin. If I were one of the judges, I'd go for my batchmates' band, 93 Kilometers since sila lang 'yung hindi nambaboy sa mga kanta. Haha. Yes, I'm so biased.

One thing I hated in this fair the most: the freedom wall. Someone posted this:

Ate Clarissa, hi po! Ang galing mo, crush kita!

Great. Ang galing mo, hate kita! If you're thinking, "Ang feeling naman nito, akala naman niya siya lang ang Clarissa sa school." Haha. I wish it was not really me but someone told me. If you're reading this, I want to tell you this: may sayad ka ba? Haha. :) Pakilala ka naman. WAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

No classes tomorrow! Yehey! I have to start working for English week because I don't love the idea of getting eliminated first in the Oral Spelling Bee. Yeah, how up-to-earth 'no? Haha. :)

I'm thinking of entering Center for Pop Music again this summer. Swear, I'll take it seriously na.