but you're still holding my hand

It's already sinking into me that yes, I'm leaving. And for nights, my brother is just making it more difficult for me to leave. We've been crying ourselves to sleep the past nights. At first I find it such a big ridicule that my brother started crying when I told him I'll be leaving soon. But shit, the next thing I knew is that I'm crying with him. I don't know how to explain it. Jumping unto a pool of emotions was never my expertise at all.

By the way, finally. I'm having a new phone tomorrow. It's final. But I still don't know what to have. I went home here yesterday and found out that my mom bought new clothes for me to wear. She updated my wardrobe without telling me. The sad part is, I have really gained A LOT of weight and it hurts to know that my waistline increased. She had 3 skinny jeans for me but unfortunately, nothing of those three would zip. Holy shit. I need college stress for me. Only stress works for me. Don't get me wrong. Kasya naman s'ya. It's just that it won't really zip. Waistline is the problem. Haha. And I want to clarify that I didn't ask for skinny jeans. My mom had it for me without asking me or whatsoever. Don't worry, I admit that I'm too big for skinny jeans. But I realized that they're not that bad-looking with me. So all's good and all right. I just really HAVE to trim my body down. Sayang. Tatlo rin yun.

I've made up my mind: I'm having a Moto Krzr K1 Fire tomorrow. :D Moto fan na ako forever. Haha. :P 4 years ulit ito bago mapalitan. Or who knows, kung di naman nasira yung phone ko, I won't change eh. I hope this one would last really for a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time.