It's the 6th of January, 2006. 28 days before the prom and still:

**I'm not having any form of communication with my prom date.. the last time I talked with him was December 26th. Now, how's that?

**I'm still a fat bitch.

Yeah. A fat bitch weighing 120 lbs. Yeah. I'm proud that I'm weighing 120 lbs. According to our school physician, my weight's so okay. Yeah. That's it.. It's so okay. God, I want it marvelous. Not just okay.. So now.. I'm suffering just to control my appetite. I'm controlling myself. I'm refusing to eat as much as before.. I even eat lunch now just to make my metabolism faster.. To make things more dramatic, I'm already doing my kickboxing every night. Yes. EVERY NIGHT. Before I do my geom homework, I see to it that I have done it. Before I study for the bullshit chemistry thing, I do it. It seems that getting fit and slimmer tops my priority list this season. but of course, I see to it that my academic status is still doing good. So far, I'm still doing good in all subjects.. and still confused with Geometry. Let me quote this: Damn. Math can't understand these circles. Now, how's that, Sandrine? Hahaha. Just Kidding.

Got to sleep. My prom gown's apple green and I just love it. At least, I'll have less prom gown clones.. Haha. :)

TWO THOUSAND and SEVEN. Deymn.. I must be insane. I really am. Haha. Can't deny it.

Good night.

The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. No Need to mention the sex of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their comments saying they've been tagged.If tagged the second time there's no need to post again.

Gagawin ko nalang 'toh para mapagbigyan yung nag tag sakin.. ahaha. sino yun? secret. hahaha.

1. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST BE SUPER DOWN-TO-EARTH - simple lang. ayoko ng conyo for short. gusto ko yung flexible. nakaka-relate sa masa at saka sa middle-class... gusto ko kilala nia si Vic Sotto kahit papaano.. o kaya nakanood na ng kahit isang episode ng Encantadia.. hahaha.. I want someone who can accompany me in watching movies like Blue Moon.. hahaha.. ayoko ng nakakarinig nito: "yuck..that's gross." o kaya naman.. "what? you watch _____? that's like uhh? super jologs"... Ayoko ng maarte.

2. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST KNOW HOW TO COOK - when I say cook, I mean cook. I don't mean frying eggs, hotdogs, preparing food such as cold cuts, instant noodles, and the like. I rarely eat instant noodles, un-cooked canned goods and the like. Sorry.. maarte ako.. ahahaha.. Hindi kasi ako puwede kumain ng hindi tunay na pagkain.. kasi baka ma-dale na yung kidney ko.. masama.. hahaha.. This perfect lover must at least know how to cook rice without using the electric rice cooker. He must at least know how to cook spaghetti and adobo.. take note: AT LEAST. haha. talk about high standards.. ahahaha.. and, he must AT LEAST know the terms marinating, sauteeing, deep-frying.. ahaha.. just kidding. :)

3. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST NOT BE AS THRIFTY AS ME - hahaha.. yeah. there's nothing wrong with being thrifty.. ibahin na natin yung term. gawin na nating "kuripot".. ahaha.. ayoko ng mas kuripot pa sakin o kasing kuripot ko.. marami nang naiinis sakin kasi sobrang kuripot ko talaga.. ahaha. imagine staying with someone more kuripot than I am.. gutom ang aabutin namin.. we would just end up controlling our hunger.. kuripot+kuripot=tag gutom. :d

4. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST BE NEAT IN PHYSICAL APPEARANCE, IN HIS HABITS AND PERSONAL BELONGINGS - ayoko ng burara. gusto ko OC. gusto ko yung ayaw ng magulo.. gusto malinis lahat.. ayoko ng hindi nagsu-suklay, tumatalsik ang laway, tumutulo ang sipon, at madumi ang kamay.. hahaha. I don't like long nails. Please lang. I don't like men with long hair. Gusto ko palagi malinis tignan.. Neat in all aspects. :)

5. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST KNOW HOW TO CLEAN HIS OWN THINGS - I hate people who are house helper dependents. You must clean your own room for no one will clean it for you. Dapat ikaw naglilinis ng kwarto mo, ng closet mo.. You must at least have the responsibility of doing the laundry of your personal undergarments.. hindi yung papalaba mo pa sa katulong niyo or sa mom mo.. shame. Major turn-off yun. Major turn-off ang marumi at magulong kwarto, yung di marunong maglinis. errrk.

6. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST KNOW HOW TO WAIT - I hate rushing on things.. the perfect lover must know how to wait for the right timing of everything.. I hate rushing myself.. Haste makes waste, as they always say it.. with this virtue comes understanding and patience in a package.. :)

7. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST BE EXPRESSIVE AND AFFECTIONATE - talk about self-composure. Maraming ganun. yung tinatago pa yung true feelings. Dapat affectionate at saka expressive.. yung alam din niya yung feelings ng ibang tao para di nakakasakit.. para ayos, diba? Bawal din ang manhid. Super bawal. Bawal ang bato.. hahaha. corny

8. THE "PERFECT LOVER" MUST FEAR GOD AND KEEP THE SABBATH DAY HOLY - this is the most important. Gusto ko yung may takot sa Diyos.. as in takot na takot.. ehehe.. corny.. Dapat nagsisimba tuwing linggo.. Priority dapat muna ang Sunday mass before anything else.. he must be capable of praying the rosary with me every other night, he must know that I spend 2 hours in church every Sunday and must be patient in waiting for me.. He must love God. Kung magagawa niya 'toh pero yung iba, hindi masyado, ayos na.. kasi tutulungan naman siya ni God for sure. :)

ang hirap mag-isip! hahaha. send ko nalang toh dun sa na tag sakin. di na ako magta-tag ng mga tao. katamad. hahaha. :)

hi cb.. happy new year.. - Papa

so ask me how it was to spend your new year's eve without your closest family members except for your freaking little brother.

it was boring. I am not saying that it was boring because I celebrated it with my grandparents, tita and brother. It was boring because we had nothing to do after having the traditional Media Noche..

I received a lot of text messages greeting me as the new year comes.. I didn't reply to all of them. hahaha.. I called Paola (my long-time best best friend) last night and we really had a good chat. I told her that I'm gonna call her today but I forgot.. Haha.. I'll just call her on the 19th, on her birthday. Haha.. That will surely make her happy. :) I also called Danielle.. :)

I just hope and pray that this year would be a good year for me. A good year for Geometry and Chemistry. And this year, 2006, a lot of supposed-to-be -good events will take place.. the prom, of course, exams, finals, college entrance tests, and a lot more to come.. haha..

I still feel sad and humiliated. Nothing has changed. I even feel irritated now.

Happy new year, to me... Happy year, too. I'll miss 2005. A lot has happened this year.. but of course, 2004 will still be the most memorable and fruitful year of my life. :)

Clarissa.