Intrams practices suck. Especially if you belong to the cheering group. Yeah. I started hating cheering since I got rejected in a cheering-related thing. Bopek cheer leaders suck and ugly. The sophomore cheer leader of Sifanta is so fucking ugly and she really thinks she's beautiful and all that because she's a cheer leader, a Forte Impromptu member, and lastly, a booster. Oh yeah. All of those things can be really be proud of but, not to the point that she feels that she's so good and so beautiful. Yeah, you're fucking beautiful and whenever I see you, my eyes bleed and I just want to remove my chucks off my feet and throw it to your shit-like face.

Rarr. I'm being too cruel. People just like that sophomore make my blood boil like hell.

Eternal damnation unto you. Sucker.

Anyway, tomorrow's card-giving day. I don't know why the hell they call it "card-giving day".. In fact, they aren't giving progress report cards. The school's giving progress report PAPERS. Haha. Mrs. Pedrosa totally spoiled my day. How can she be a good Arithmetic teacher if she can't do right and accurate calculations?? I think 84 is so far from 77.. and 85 is so different from 71. Why are you complaining?? You even got 71 last quarter. Hey hey hey. Never in my whole damn life that I got 71 and.. I don't think I'm that dumb and stupid to get such mark. Anyway, it's okay because she apologized a while ago for her stupid computations. May pakinabang talaga kung ma-reklamo ka kasi nalilinaw mo ang lahat at saka nakukuha mo ang dapat mong makuha...


I'm so disappointed with myself. I've totally wasted my past 2 years and 2 quarters in high school. I have been so lazy and stupid. I'm just so lucky to have a general average such as 89.9 even though I don't really study at all. I'm lucky compared with my schoolmates/classmates who already attend Saturday classes and/or tutorial classes and still not get decent grades. I have completely used stack knowledge in all my subjects in the past 2 years and 2 quarters. I only study if I already need to study...

I have finally came to a realization that I should have known even before. I ALREADY NEED TO STUDY. I MEAN STUDY. I can't simply do what I want to do because I'm so afraid of being not good enough. I fear committing mistakes. I hate being rejected. That's why I'd rather stay put than move because it might just cause me to commit mistakes. But, I would never ever know if I can do it if I won't try it.

Envy is a mortal sin... but my envy to those who excel right now is my motivation. It opened my eyes. It pushes me to act now. Envy is killing me right now. Yeah, I know now that the mamatay ka sa inggit line is true. Envy kills. I need to act now. I need to move. I have to.

So help me, God.

Have you done friendster-profile-hopping?? That's what I just did after advance-reading 4 chapters of Noli.. which was only a while ago. I find it interesting seeing the testimonials of other people to people.. Haha. Just comprehend that. I also do view the photos of all the friendster profiles that I view. Haha. These are the top 2 funny and annoying things that I saw during my friendster-profile-hopping..

1. I have seen several friendster profiles with pictures of teen-age couples (boyfriends-girlfriends) kissing lips to lips. As in real. I mean several. And those pictures have captions such as "rather scadalous but, scrumptiously delicious", "this is it!", "feels like heaven!", "on cloud 9!".... and the most eye-catching caption that I've seen in such photo: "sana'y maulit muli!" -- yuck. Yeah. How cool and sosyal.. [sarcasm is a beautiful thing.] Yeah, there's nothing wrong with kissing especially when you really do love each other but, do you really have its picture taken and shown in the internet where everybody in the world can see? Raarrr..

2. I have also seen many friendster profiles containing testimonials from their "special someones". And the most common thing I saw in those testimonials is: I love you so much.. I love you.. I love you.. I love you.. I wonder if those "I love yous" are still sincere. If he can say it a million times to you and that easy, don't you think that he can say that, too to every girl that he gets? I love you kayong lahat nang babae sa buhay niya. If I would be put in the same case, I'd rather have a guy who's very shy to say it but once he says it, he really does mean it than have a guy who yeah, always tell that thing but is not sincere. [ang barok ko.].

I'm just so pakialamera. Yeah, I admit it. What do I hell care if their friendster profile contains that kind of stuff? Hahaha.

Sana'y maulit muli.. ahahaha.. On cloud 9! haha. Sweet.. NOT. It sucks. If I were in the same shoes, I would never ever dare imitate those photo captions and I would not upload those pictures [if there are any] in some place that all can see. That's just so sucky.. and it's definitely not sweet. It's so eeky and it even puts some ideas in some people's minds that their engaging to something farther than lip-to-lip kissing. Yah know what I mean.

Rarr. I do not find it really sweet. It's scadalous.

Err.. I think I'm really becoming a kill-joy conservative girl.

So?

Anna.

have you ever had this feeling?

you're walking carefreely and then all of a sudden, you see someone then you suddenly feel the *spark*.... tsssssssssssss... fireworks sa buong paligid.. tsssss.. spark! and then you feel your heart beat triple time as in you can hear your heart beat very loud.. rinig talaga.. as in dugdug.dugdug.dugdug.dugdug. you feel this sensation all over your body and you can't even move then your feet get cold... sheesh.. giniginaw ka pero pinagpapawisan ka na... tapos nagta-tantalize na yung mga mata mo.. tantalize as in konting ihip nalang, duling na duling ka na...

spark-fireworks-dugdug ng puso-giniginaw pero pawis-nangangatog-tantalizing eyes...

what a feeling!!!!



















HEART ATTACK 'YAN, DUDE!

ahahahaha.. akala mo naman kung ano.. hahaha..

parang eksena ng isang Close-Up commercial na sobrang patok at kinakikiligan ng mga tao.. pero sa totoo, heart attack.. ahahaha..

wala.. nothing to blog about.

ayoko ng negro.

Anna.