More than terrified

I don't want to open my eyes tomorrow. Don't ask why. This thing's been running on my mind ever since September 17th. It sucks. It has caused me severe mental torture. Everytime I daydream and try to think of something sweet and try to contemplate over surreal yet nice events, my mind averts its track leading to that Blue Eagle Gym along the busy highway of Katipunan. My close friends know how I'm dealing with this thing and I know that in one way or another, I'm already irritating them because of my endless rants regarding this matter--which also makes them worried of their application status.

A fraction of my school friends now have a 'decent' university to go into in college. I'm the most tofee-nosed kid ever to reason that I just don't see my future in that school that's why I didn't take the entrance exam. True, I just don't see my future there although they say that it begins there. You get what I mean. But as I have seen, everyone just passed. Blah. Malaking sayang.

Please stop telling me things like I'm on a sure-pass situation in that great 'the' Areneow. I have to admit that it's somehow getting my hopes up too high and I just don't know how upset I'd be if ever I fail. So please, stop it. Let's treat things normally. You don't know how I messed up my essay during the exam date--with the ugliest handwriting ever. Aaaaah. I should have enrolled at speed-reading when I was a kid. Haha. Oh yeah, wag na akong patulan, pwede ba.

During club time:

Erica Trinidad: there's no sense worrying. What do you think? God will see you worried and change the test results? Haha. Don't think of it!

Help me through this. Please don't give me a reason to be angry with God. I'm slowly losing my faith because of as I have said in my last post, because of things that happened last year. It's always hardwork from me and I don't get a good payback afterwards. I hope and sincerely pray that everything will work out.

Anyway, I found myself doing all my homeworks and school tasks ahead before 7:30 PM tonight--yeah, even the Accounting homework that I usually just do in school before classes start. Nice change. I'm being more studious. I've got to maintain good things like this. By the way, I just called FedEx and inquired about my 'package' for my CIW partner and they said my partner has already received it at 4:30pm a while ago. Yey! I'm happy because I just made someone happy. Now I know my partner already has vitamins and that she'd not be too lonely because I wrote her a letter. It's something for me to be quite happy. I'd trust my 'deliveries' to FedEx from now on because 2GO really sucks big time--our surprise for Trixie Sandrine for instance. It took 4 days for that girl to receive it. 2GO's a big bitch for ruining all our plans on that day. Plus, delivery costs in FedEx are much cheaper. So yeah.

Good night.

Burn the school

The very unfortunate student body is going back to school tomorrow. And yes, we were given nine days of 'vacation' to of course, finish all the requirements they threw on us before we were allowed to leave that hell-ish institution. They can't blame us why we are not that nostalgic everytime we think of leaving the school in March 2007. Yes! 2007 has finally came. Freedom is almost reachable now. Yes! No more Saturday classes, no more very very very short 'vacations'. No more demanding-than-the-most-demanding teachers (I think). Yeah, no more long-sleeved tan uniform and black Mary Janes.

Aaaaaaaaaah. I just can't wait until the day that Mrs Dino will be handling my high school diploma to me. I cannot wait any longer. 3 more months and yeah, I'll kiss my high school goodbye. Finally.

Okay, I haven't done my Math homework yet. I'd do it tomorrow since I left my Math notebook inside my pompom-smelling locker. I just hope and pray that the field trip orientation tomorrow will be on the first two periods because: I haven't read El Fili yet and our English powerpoint for The Iliad is a big mess. Wala, walang kwenta.

My goals for 2007:

• attain my original goal. haha.
• be happy with the CET results
• be less dismayed by things
• lose weight
• more winnings! haha. English Week.. duh.
  
• tententenen!--be the Most Outstanding Club Member in the SAP recognition. Hahaha. Sorry na, pakapalan na talaga ng mukha. Tingin ko naman may qualifications ako eh--well yeah, aside from Trixie the treasurer and Ana, the junior. Haha. As if ang laking award nun eh. Bwiset.
  
• make my faith as strong as it is before. there were some things in my life in the past year that just made me less faithful. you can't blame me, I'm human.
  
• attain everything in this list.

Okay, I'm going to school tomorrow with a very dirty knapsack. Halatang marumi kasi it's pink. I've done too much work because of the projects ahead of me this 'vacation' that's why I wasn't able to wash it; and I was out. I'll wash it over the weekend, promise. I can't go to school with a dirty bag.

Kiss 2006 goodbye

WELCOME 2007!

Okay all I wish is everything that would be happening in this new year would be great and fine. According to Chinese readings, the year 2007 is the perfect time to harvest all the fruits of your hardwork in the past year, 2006. I guess I worked hard so I really am hoping for something good this year. Please lang noh. Haha. Sorry ka nalang kung di kay nag-'hardwork' noong 2006, wala ka talagang maha-'harvest'. Haha.

2006 was quite a good year for me but it was really a stressful year as well. I remember mga January 2006, stressed kaming lahat sa school. There's the stress brought by Trigo, Chem, Geom, the term paper, exams, and the promdate-hunting. Haha. The year 2006 was one tiring year for me. Andyan 'yung Boosters noong February and intrams practises just this December. Haha. Up to now, I cannot still get over Aeris' victory. Haha. :D

Oh well 2006, it was quite good with you. 2007, I hope and pray that we'll be more okay. Haha. Yuck, it rhymed.

Anyway, BREAK NA SINA ANGEL LOCSIN AT OYO BOY SOTTO! Okay, I'm not anti-Angel Locsin. I like her actually. She's very versatile and really beautiful and I think she's also a good girl. What I was really against to is her relationship with her late boyfriend's cousin, Oyo Boy Sotto. Ewan. Come to think of it. Diba parang kadiri at saka nakakahiya. Wala lang. Oh well, ang sad naman ng new year niya. Sayang.

Japan is one big Ortigas Center! The streets of Tokyo are very busy at daytime and it becomes livelier in night time. Grabe! Mas nakaka-whoa siya pag gabi kasi nung first day namin tas daytime, medyo akala ko masagwa kasi may mga dugyot na hapon na naglalakad sa daan. Haha. Not to be racist but some japanese are really unhygienic. I think what makes them not really hygiene-conscious is the fact that a large populace of their population lives in apartments. Since apartment naman 'yan at maraming tao, hindi talaga maiiwasan na maging unsanitary so wala nang pakialamanan. Ewan. That's just what I have observed in my stay there. Overall, Japan is a very nice place in Asia. It's very progressive, very modern. I hope the Philippines would be like that someday. The Watsons store we've been into is just fabulous! Parang siyang isang mall ng health and beauty na parang gift shop na rin. Basta, it's so different from our Watsons here. 7 Eleven rocks! Haha. Ngayon lang ako nakakita ng 7 Eleven na may tindang cellphones at gadgets. First-world countries are just really whoa-ing.

Okay here's a very very random babble before I end this. I just can't let this pass.
It is of my opinion that the Subic Rape Case involving this Nicole girl is being so sensationalized. Come on, let's face the truth. That Nicole girl was not the only woman raped by an American GI staying here in the country. There are a lot of them, actually. This is acutally one of the reasons why there are a lot of amboys and tisays in our country; especially in Subic, Olongapo that do not know their real fathers. It just happened that Nicole brought the matter into the public kaya nagkaganun. Honestly, I do not believe that girl that she was actually raped. And wait, she was seen voluntarily going inside the van where she was 'raped', right? Meaning she was not really forced by that hotter-than-hot Daniel Smith. Here's the thing. Maybe yeah, she voluntarily went with Daniel Smith and had sex with him that night and after all the thing that happened, she just realized that what she went into was altogether wrong that's why she went to the police. Oh come on. Kung 'di ka ba naman talaga ganun kalandi eh, bat ka nasa bar at sumama ka pa sa kano na 'yun? I'm sorry for judging the Nicole girl pero kasi ano'ng tawag mo dun? I just really hate how her folks sensationalize this event as if this is the first time it happened. By the way, that Daniel Smith is really hot. Sayang ka.

Cold fun

I'm back! :D I quite enjoyed the trip--especially at the plane--where I was seated next with someone I didn't know because the seat number sucks. Haha. It's no sarcasm. I enjoyed it; especially when we were on our way to Jp.

Okay I have too many school works to finish. The goal book, econ. Yeah, goal book and econ project and yeah, math homework.

The whole stay in Jp made my left boob hurt a lot. Haha. Malamig kasi eh, duh.

I'm so happy! :D No, not because of the trip. Basta.

I'll make a better entry tomorrow, when I get home from my grandmom's home. Yeah, with pictures. :D Haha. As if eh ampf.