Queen of Epidemics

This is the saddest day of my life. The impulse just destroyed the momentum [remember Physics]. This is so sad. :(

I thought the record was already broken last year. But hey, it's just April and 2007 has almost just started! Pwede pang pang-habol sa nawala sa 2006. And yes, my friends, there's another addition to my list: Small Pox, Chicken Pox, Dengue Stage II, __________

MUMPS. BEKE
BILATERAL MUMPS. BEKE SA DALAWANG PISNGI.

I am such an unfortunate person. I should be partying at this moment of time at Bopeep's birthday bash but due to this unfortunate event that I just came to know the moment I woke up early in the morning, I am here quarantined at home.

I sought for my baby records this morning and checked if I had been given the MMR vaccine because I plan to blame my mom if I see that I haven't been given those shots. What the hell, that was even the first vaccine injected to me and I had booster doses after. My brother, who in the other hand also had mumps in the past weeks also have been given MMR. So it's a proven fact that vaccines do not give 100% assurance that you'll be protected until sixteen years of age.

My cheeks, my neck, my back ache like hell. And add to this unfortunate day that there has been a 7-hour power interruption in the whole vicinity that I live in. I was really itching to go to somewhere else but my mom said it'll just make it worse. I can take the pain but I just can't take my ugly face whenever I look at it in the mirror. My cheeks are very fat, they're round, big, and very plumpy. It reminds me of a schoolmate whose cheeks are of the same descriptions abovementioned; plus her cheeks are very unproportional to her built. Eeew. This is the main reason why I would prefer hiding myself than to go out and swim in the clubhouse like me brother did today. It makes me think that I look like her. Yikes! I have thrice the size of Jollibee's cheeks. I'm Humpy Dumpy--special Chinese siopao version. It's actually funny; and it's hard for me to laugh because the moment I do, it would just ache unbearably. Hell, why did this happen to me?! Buti nalang summer. Unlike the past years, I always get sick when it's August--when it's exam season; which makes the teachers in school think that I'm not really sick at all. Ridiculous.

I'll be missing a lot of fun tonight. Finch Patrol's there--and EHEM. Finch Patrol wouldn't be complete without Me -- their forever industrious project-maker. Haha. :) I love those people even though they made me mad a lot of times last school year.

Thank God there's Jollibee Burger Steak and Chickenjoy. I haven't eaten the whole day because I have appetite loss. Jollibee would only be the one to make me eat although eating when you have mumps is the suckiest thing ever. I don't care about the pain basta Jollibee! Haha.

HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY, TRACY BERNADETTE VIDAD. YOU CONFUSE ME, YOU KNOW. HAHA. :)

Up again

Okay now I know. I may have probably developed a sleep disorder due to my abusive sleeping habits in the first weeks of summer. I sleep early but wake up too early. I was very productive these past two days of the week and hell, I swear I am dog-tired. At around 7pm, I went to my room and flopped without caring about how messy my room is. And yes, I woke up too early. 1am. And the same thing happened to me today. So whatevs, I can't sleep now whatever I do. I've been already curling myself for almost an hour and have been trying different sleeping 'positions' but I still cannot sleep. That's why I ended here, hoping that my eyes would be heated up by the radiation rays of the monitor and I would be [hopefully] able to sleep.

I went to UP today. You know what I love about commuting and riding public transportation vehicles? It allows me to observe a lot of different people. You get to know a lot of things when you commute. You learn a lot when you do that. Always, always. Another thing that I love doing whenever I'm out of the home is walking on a nice place. I like walking no matter how long the distance is when the place is nice. I went to UP today and just walked inside the campus although I've been really itching to have a Toki ride because I was already lost. But hey, I thought I need to learn how to get to my destination the hardest way before I do the easier way. It didn't matter too much to me since walking has been almost a therapeutic treat for me.

Seeing a lot of girls my age with boyfriends and having PDAs/PDEs alarms me. I always remember TeenSTAR whenever I come to instances like this. I don't know if I'm the only one who feels this way but it's just not good to see young teen-age couples hugging/cuddling while in or walking in malls. Eeew. Eeew. Err. Yuck. Definitely that's one of the situations I would never see myself in. PDAs/PDEs? No way. And now that I'll be soon entering college, I still don't think that I'm going to be in the same situation. I don't even think that I'll be having this thing they call special someone in college since my goals have been already set and I think having one would just hinder me from attaining them. Nobody knows how desperate and paranoid I am when I have thoughts of entering med school after 4 years of undergraduate studies in the university. I won't forgive myself if I'd do something that would just pull me down. I would love to have a good social life when I get to college--I'll be needing that to lighten up the pressure a little bit and of course for me to grow and learn things, too; but I think having a special someone would be last in the list. And as one friend puts it, if ever madala ako, you won't see me PDA-ing or PDE-ing around. No mushy schmaltzy things that may lead to somewhere. I'd always put in mind all the things in TeenSTAR; all those things are tools for me to get into the right way. Haha. I really do appreciate the subject although it was just a minor one when I was in my senior year in high school. It's so useful.

Oh my. I hate this. I am not yet sleepy.

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I check my e-mail today and look what I found. This is ridiculous and very funny. Errr. Some crazy girl friend nominated me in this thing. Haha! I do not know if I'd be happy or if I'd be shy or what. Whatevs. It's still kind of flattering. Haha. :)

details of events

Since I was a kid, I have never known any other college. It was put to mind by the people I live with that I should go there. And I am destined to be there. And as I grew older, being there has been my ultimate academic dream and the process I have undergone just to be there wasn't as easy as the others'. But now I'm close to it, I just can't feel that I'm happy.

After all the CETs last year, I have dreamt of passing Ateneo but imagined myself going to UP. That dream I had never came true and honestly, that made me bitter because I just couldn't accept the fact that many deserving people passed and many UNdeserving people incredibly passed as well. I know that for other people, I may be one of those 'undeserving people', too; and it's just really unfortunate for me to not be able to be included in the list of 'undeserving people who passed'. Since there was nothing I could do about it and wouldn't want to force myself into an institution who could not offer a slot to me, I let all the bitterness pass. Goodbye Ateneo, I have never known you. The next week came and I came to school seeing ecstatic batchmates. Hey, hey! UPCAT results came out. Here I felt most terrified thinking of possible results since I didn't make it in the great A. And you know the rest of the events. Days passed and here comes a result again. Now, from UST. And wow, that was truly an ego boost for me. I passed both my choices. Degree programs which UST is known for and degree programs that people often choose but people also often fail to be qualified. I may have not shown it but I was happy and I looked forward to going to UST but you know what happened.

I am not going to UST Nursing, I'm going to UP though there were a lot of times when I thought of going to UST Nursing instead. There was even an instance wherein I was already about to confirm my slot there because I was blinded just by the thought of the monetary benefits I'd have if I'd go to UST Nursing. But I'm not sure if I'd be happy with all those monetary benefits I'd be having if ever. And I do not want to be confined in UST's high school-ish society. I feel that if I'd go there, it's like not leaving high school at all. I won't grow there. I need to be in somewhere where I could do a lot of things; where I would be part of the real society. That's why I chose to be in there.

You know what's weird? I'm not happy about it. I am not really happy. I don't know why. :( I'm even more excited for my DLSU friends who'll be already stepping to college this May. I wonder how I would feel on my first day on college. There are questions in my mind like what will I wear? how will I make friends? will I get along well with the opposite sex because I'm from an all-girl school? will there be 'introduce yourself' sessions in the class? Too many questions, only one day will answer. I just hope it'll work out fine. I wonder how difficult my academics will be. I just hope I'd be able to manage all with a little bit of extra-curricular. College is for real so there's no sense playing because if I'd do that, I'll be dead.

I have not done anything productive yet. In May I will. I will be teaching Korean Brent kids grammar in English. Those kids are the children of my grandaunt's Korean tenant in Ayala Alabang. Their past English teacher which is a Filipina by the way, borrowed 200,000 pesos from them and never came back that's why they asked my mom to refer an English grammar teacher who is trustworthy. I asked my mom how much would be the rate for each session and the rate is overly great. So why not? Haha. I suppose they know a little bit English naman because those kids are studying at Brent International School. International school, baby! They won't survive there not knowing English. Haha. My mom said she has met the kids and she told me that they're pretty fine and they just really need to work on their grammar and pronunciation.

I'll be 5-figures richer than all of you guys! 55,555. Haha. :)

HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY MAXIROSE BERNARDINO ENRIQUEZ! LOVE YOU. :)