So Uneasy

I woke up yesterday (Friday morning) with a weird feeling in my tummy. The feeling was like having flowing cold water inside my stomach. Actually, I woke up very early yesterday because of that weird feeling I had. Yes. You guessed it right. I've got LBM. So imagine that. That day, I had to go to Assumption Antipolo for the Eco-Song Fest. Isn't it great? So before the school bus came, I've been in the bathroom for 4 times. What the hell. It's dusgusting, I know. I have to do that because I can't go to Assumption with a lot of stuff here in my tummy.

And the situation is even worse now. You see, it's 8 in the morning and I'm here, blogging this early. I woke up at 4 in a sweet Saturday because of this fcuked up tummy depression. I slept at 8 last night. Woke up at 9:30 to do the thing, slept. Woke up at around 11, "slept". Woke up at 2:30 am then slept then woke up again at 3:30 then after that, I decided not to sleep because the feeling is getting even worse. It's not getting any better. And you see, there's USTet for tomorrow. If this situation does not get well, I'll ask my mom to bring me to the hospital and have a lab test. There's something wrong.

Rawr. LBM can be a cause of death, for me. Haha. Pero if you come to think of it, it can really be a cause of sudden death. I can be dehydrated and then I'll just collapse. The feeling while in Assumption yesterday was without doubt unbearable. Tapos kain pa ako nang kain. KFC for lunch then McDo for the afternoon-early night snack. And guess what I had in Mcdo. Hot Fudge! So my stomach got even more upset because of the lactose that the Hot Fudge had. Fudge. Fudge. Fudge. Fudge. Fudge. I miss you. :) Okay, you don't get it. Haha. :P

So what's the reason why I'm having this loose shit withdrawal? Last Thursday, during the Eco-Song practice, I drank gallons of water from the school gymnasium's drinking fountain. As in gallons because it was so hot that day and I cannot resist drinking the water from the fountain despite the copper-rich taste. So learn from me. Don't drink water from that fountain anymore. Actually, drinking fountains like that should have a purifier attached onto it like in other schools. Don't drink because the machine inside it is made of metal compartments so you drink water with copper or aluminum or whatever metal element. To be safe, drink water from the Prep Building's drinking fountain. It's the only drinking fountain in school that does not offer a water that has a metal aftertaste. Blech.

So how was the Eco-Song? It was altogether fine. :D We placed 3rd. That's not bad because if you come to think of it, there were no high-profile Performing Arts Club[chorale and FI] members who were allowed to join us. So that's okay. Ang galing namin. Ang galing ng batch namin. And there were 7 schools who competed kaya we beated 4 other schools. :D Another thing 0.5 difference is not a big difference at all. :) So there. We've got to be happy :)

Yehey! At last! I'll be coming home while the sun's still up. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ERICA TRINIDAD (SEPT 22)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOMMY (LOLA) [SEPT 23]

Slap me

I have never been so tired. This day's too occupied with things to do. First, I went to Assumption Antipolo for the Eco Recycled Art Contest. Ateneo's gonna bag the 1st place and there's no doubt in that. But I really do not know what the Ateneans did so if the judges would base the scores in the usefulness of the "artwork", we will surely win. I hope they'd do that. When I got back to school, I immediately ran to the gym for the Eco-Song. I got dog-tired.

We were so overwhelmed by the crowd during the "dry-run" of the Eco-Song. Whoa. As in WHOA. That was the first time we actually felt that we were doing something really really good; because as you all know, it's always "ano ba kayo, ganyan ganun kuwan" Well. Haha. Ang saya. The whole student body liked it--it was obvious. Why guys, didn't you? Haha. So happy with what happened in the Eco Song run. :)

And all the happiness vanished when I went to club. Hay. :( Am I not a good leader and you tend to forget all? Please, oh please.

But I still feel sad about certain things that I can't put here. :( No one can help me.

Come with me

Projects are coming and the next thing I know, I've been stressed out too much.

I wanna hibernate and quit school. Yeah. Quit school. I'm in my lazy state right now and I'm not really spending too much time in academics especially now, ACET's over. Yes. I skipped Eco-Song practise today. Boy, let me enjoy my Monday just for now. I'll be back and kickin' tomorrow for sho'.

It's weird. The sun's still up but it's already dark. I mean, it's dark but when you look up to the heavens, there's an uncanny shade of yellow and lime green. So I assume that the sun's still there. Apollo my love is still there. Apollo who? Yes. Apollo mi amor. Okaaaaaay. That's the weirdest thing you've just seen. There's a chekwa freak who's got big infatuation for an olympian god. I told you. I need rest.

The air's getting chilly at night. There's this thing we indios call simoy. I love it. It provokes me to hibernate and flop on the sheets and get up the next day. Wooooo.

All I want to do now is to flop on bed with someone. Yeah. That would be great.

Boy, don't comprehend that last statement figuratively. There's no fishy thing there.

1 more to go.

Our mouse is really getting ridiculous. It functions well when my brother's on use and it gets stupid when it's my turn. There. There he is, just beside me, using the worldwide web-connected computer while me, I am here, using this laptop that’s not even connected to a modem. What the hell.

Why are parents like that? They expect too much from us as if there's no place for failures. I am not sure if I'm still taking the UST test next weekend because for Papa, it's a waste of time. Hindi ka na dapat mag-test sa isang eskwelahan sa Maynila dahil panget d'yan. Palaging baha, laging traffic, malayo. Nice reason. And here's another thing, if I don’t pass Ateneo, UP and because I may be not taking the UST test and wasting 500 pesos for the application fee, sa FEU-NRMF daw ako mag-aaral para raw straight med school na. Leche. WTH. Ayoko. Hindi ako mag-aaral kapag ganun. I mean it. Don't force me to study in a college where I do not want to study. Pwede ba. No, don't get me wrong here. I am not discriminating people from that school pero please lang, ayoko talaga. Palagi nalang akong sumusunod sana naman ako naman ngayon. Ang lagay eh hindi ako ihahatid sa UST dahil hindi na nga ako kukuha doon. EH. Gusto ko pa rin at magco-commute nalang ako or sasabay kung kanino d'yan. Basta. I'll take the test. I won't take the risk of not having a good "fall-back" university.

So, how was the ACET by the way? I made the worst essay today. I had the most hideous handwriting in the essay. Rawr. Blame the proctor for not telling how much time was left. He writes the time when there are only 10 minutes left. Leche. Akala ko marami pang oras kaya ang bagal-bagal kong sumagot ng Language Proficiency part. Ang baaaaagal. 10 minutes nalang ang natitira at may 15 pa ata akong numbers na kailangang sagutan. Pfft. O dali na, kaawaan mo na ako. Pero natapos ko pa rin at natapos ko yung essay. Ang panget talaga, nakakahiya.

ACET became harder than UPCAT because of the time pressure. Correct and effective pacing is a must; and I don't have the skill for that tool, unfortunately. I’ve been too used to reading and comprehending what I read at the same time that's why I read slowly. Oh well, at least, 2% of my English Proficiency test lang ang shotgun. Hindi tulad ng iba na wala naman atang ginawa kundi mag shotgun and then afterwards, magrereklamo at badtrip sa test results. Eh duh. Receive the gift of shotgun. Haha. Oops, walang particular person dito, ah. I'm just giving a usual instance. :P The Mathematics Proficiency was really a test of how math proficient you are. It was hard. What's new? I never excelled in Math. I did my best in the Math part. I tried answering the last items first. Hmm. I think that technique only applies in the UPCAT because in ACET, as I have seen, there's no particular order of difficulty. I was not able to finish solving all the problems kaya I just skimmed through the figures and chose the answer closest to the given figures. Hah. Sorry. I am not really well-skilled when it comes to numerical abstractions. I could have aced the math part if it was filled with problems we had in Geometry last year. Yeah. I love Geometry even though I hate Math; just exclude those circles that circumscribe angles. Blech.

The Numerical Ability part was such a monster. 30 minutes for all of those problems? Come on. That's a 25-item part, man. Why is it that ACET was too time pressured? How is time pressure connected with St. Ignatius, by the way? Hah.

ACET was fun, though. Fun way of torturing yourself mentally. Oh, I forgot to mention that Logical Reasoning was my most favorite part of the test. Haha. It was fun answering the questions there. People need that test. I am serious here. Some people really need that test; pati na rin ang practical reasoning dapat may ganun eh para 'yung ibang tao hindi baluktot ang paniniwala at kung ano-ano ang mga sinasabi. :P. Whoops, I am not mentioning a name here. Abstract Reasoning was a cerebrum rocker. Kakabaliw.

So there. I am not really certain on my perceptions after I have taken ACET. I can't conclude if it was easy or difficult. It seems that I'm apathetic towards the results of this test. I don't know why. Perhaps this is due to the excessive tension I had the past weeks. You know the tension and anxiety brought by paranoia of not having a good school in college. I was attacked by those thoughts the past weeks; and I can't deny that sometimes, those thoughts still pop out of my mind when my mind's brought to an idle state. My brain won't stop thinking about things and when there's nothing to think of really, these thoughts come out of it—making me pressured and worried.

I pray and hope that I'd pass this one and especially UP. I pray that I'd pass UP, Ateneo, and UST as well. It feels good if there's a wider choice and if you passed the school that you really really want to get in to. But as Mrs Benitez puts it: "If you don’t pass, so what?!" Haha. Yeah. So what? Why not spend just one year in a university that you really do not like? That's why there's an option called transfer. Get my point there. Pero, heh! UP pa rin. Please help me, God. Mother Mary please help me have a place both in UP and Ateneo, and UST, too. St. Ignatius, please help me pass Ateneo.

Are you already confused in what school do I really want to get in to? Don't be confused my dear, they're just adjacent and very near each other. Be happy and pray for me. :)

--typed in my laptop at September 17, 2006; 9:45 pm

Oh, before I forget. A million thanks to Mr. Talens (sorry, we did not have the chance to talk for too long) for lending me very important materials for the ACET. Hehe. I'm so sorry. I promise I won't do that again. Probably you won't see this pero thanks pa rin nang marami! :D God bless you. I hope we'd both pass ACET. :)