Great Opportunities: ALL WASTED

I'm so confused.

I'm confused about what to take up in college and what club to enter next year. I'm torn between Mass Comm and Medicine and, now I consider Theatre Arts. Waah. I don't know. I don't know! The Career Awareness Talk only made me more confused. The club thing.. *sigh* I hope Ms. Malayas doesn't read this, but, she just.. uhh. rawr. Kinulong niya ako. I just hope that something would happen next year.. I would definitely not enjoy leading a club that yeah, has some involvment especially when it comes to liturgical activites but with no devotion and dedication at all. I won't love that. And, I know I am not that strong and influential to change people. Oh, I wish I am.

Agalaia auditions yesterday and I failed to try. I am just so hesitant to try because of some things. I absolutely lack confidence though I know I can. You know this feeling that you are too afraid of trying on or working on great things because you are scared of shame and being laughed on. Next will be the Chorale auditions and F.I. Okay, I know people who are reading this right now are laughing because I considered F.I. I have been itching to try on F.I. since 1st year! Hell, I'm turning 4th year in less than 10 days! and I haven't tried anything to be better yet. I hate this. I just hate this.

I so regret that I made this shy and quiet type image. This may be the reason why I am afraid to show the real me. The real thing that I've got. Oh, come on, Clarissa! You're turning 16 and you're gonna be a senior in less than 10 days! For my last year, I wanna be someone great and someone I really want to be! This is not how I want myself to be.

You aint seen the best of me yet. Give me time and I'll make you forget the rest.

Time given enough and it's now.

Got to love you more

That seriously hurt.

...and all I wanna do is to hurt you even worse


Oh. I just got to love you more.


Good luck, may you sleep tight every night.

One with the clouds. :)

I was in the school bus, on my way home when I suddenly remembered that I wasn't able to give my Formal Theme IV to Alex Lee. Now that's what you call super duper stupid. No, don't think that I am just making an alibi because I "forgot" making it. Well, if you know me, you would undoubetdly agree because you know that when it comes to stuff like that (formal themes, comm. ex, projects), I see to it that I have it before entering the holy gates of the school. I am just super duper stupid for I forgot to give it to Alex Lee. I was just so preoccupied of the events that happened today. So the first thing that I'm gonna do tomorrow is have my formal theme passed to Ms. Platon.

Turn-Over ceremonies today. By the way, I was partnered with Ate Alya. So, there's nothing too new because we're already acquaintances even before today's ceremonies. Kaharap ko siya sa boosters. so part din siya ng "Enerva team" haha. As souvenir, she gave me her 4th year patch and I gave her a Darna drawing since I know that she loves the super heroine so much. And, it's enough and fulfilling that at least, I made her smile. :) (don't get me wrong here and think that I'm crushing on her. Hellow.)

It's just so funny that Ate Aisha's responsibilties and duties as president was already turned over to me. Funny. Super funny. I just can't imagine myself leading the club. This really will be a challenge.

In less than 15 days, we'll unofficially be the seniors in the school! Woohoo! 4th year. I'm gonna change my patch to number 4 na! Haha. This seems to be the shortest school year, ever! and by the way, the bloodiest, too. Aww. But I'll surely miss some of the outgoing seniors.. :(

Everything just went on fine and all right!