Ako UNA

Spring Waltz is going to be aired on Philippine TV after that Princess Hours ends.
Oh well, I've seen the trailer that ABS-CBN made for the drama.
It sucks. It sucks. The dubbing sucks.
If you have watched the original version, as in the korean one, you'll know what I'm saying.
I must say GMA7 is really better in dubbing. No doubt at that.
Ang panget talaga. Grrrr.

Still, it's really dismaying that GMA7 was not able to buy the rights to televise Spring Waltz here; to think that Spring Waltz is the fourth and last installment in the Endless Love Series. Autumn in my Heart, Winter Sonata, Summer Scent which were the first installments were all aired in GMA7. Then here comes Spring Waltz--going to be aired in the other network.

Ironic.

Oh well, before some other girls there go ga-ga over him,

AKO UNA .

Dun nalang kayo sa mysterious looking, haha. Since yun naman type niyo, diba? Wahahahaha. Kidding. Mamaya may panget na mag-react dyan eh. Bwiset na naman.

the sun was too bright

now I cannot see clearly.
everything's just blurry.
I have to see the ophtha.
I'll do that when I have time or when I want to.
or maybe I'll just use my glasses.
but it's no use now. :(
I should have obeyed the ophtha. :(

I hate the bright sun.

emoshitnal

I have never been this bitter. Never in my whole life I was.
I have the most reasonable reasons to feel this way so don't think that this is again one of the gazillion bouts of immaturity and insecurity that I usually have.

She should have emphasized the point of the activity.
Or at least waited for us.
Sayang, hindi man lang ako nakasama sa botohang lokohang iyon.
They are the most synthetic and the stupidest persons that I have ever met. Bibigyan pa ako ng pagkain--handa ni Hudas.

Oh well, I can't do anything about it. Being productive wasn't enough. I wish I shouldn't have done all of those things so that I wouldn't feel this bad in the end.

I suck.
Now paint a giant red -L on my face; because that's what I am: LOSER.
As much as I don't want to think of it, I cannot help thinking and sulking here.

You know what? They always, always make me cry. I hate them.

Gusto kong mag-amok, mag-urmentado, mambato ng mga panget ng mukha.
Walang hiya. Hindi ko na 'to kakayanin. Masyado akong lugi sa mga nangyayari.
Babawi ako. Makikita niyo.

Bukas luluhod ang mga tala. :x XD ^_-
Seryoso ako. Hindi na ako nagjo-joke ngayon.

nadadala nalang

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I don't really see why I have to have 4 math subjects in college. This is one of the reasons why I became hesitant to pursue this degree. Ang dami masyadong Math. Okay, hindi marami, apat lang. Pero hello, I really doubt if I would excel because most probably, Math will pull me down. Always, always, always. With this, I just realized that I'm actually pitting myself into all the difficult subjects in high school. Bio, Chem, Physics, and chenen! Math! This course makes me sad because it means that I'll be confining myself inside the nerdy-academic abode. Nerdy-academic. What? Nerdy-academic. YUCK. I fear that taking this degree program would hinder my personal growth since there will be no much subjects that would be dealing with the 'real social world'. I'll be spending a lot of time in my books, in the university's lab, blah blah blah nananananana. How sad. Ang lungkot naman. Haha; inulit pa eh.

On the other hand, I saw something nice:

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it's nice, isn't it? No heavy math. :) Haha.
But I'm still trying Bio though. If I'm not happy with it, I'll shift.

My mom told me to stop looking at the curriculum of different courses because this only makes me more confused. I don't really know what to do with my life now. I thought I already knew but not I'm coming closer, I am confused and very unsure. Poor me. :(

p.s.
the gold notebook that the juniors gave us a while ago in the turn-over ceremony is really nice. I love it. :)

I can't hear.

Graduation is next week.
Surely, I'll be missing all of them.
Will be entering college in 3 months time.
I still don't know what to pursue.

In the past few weeks, I've been thinking of what I really want to be. They said imagining yourself in 10 years would be a big help. In my case, it isn't. To LS or to MS? Now I do not know. Too many forces are acting on me, causing me to change my mind; my vision. I hate this. Nobody could help me, I cannot even help myself.

I'm leaving for a cold "far-away" land for my first year of college; then I'm entering the university's flagship campus next year. Hopefully, with a clear goal to achieve. When I said this matter to some of my friends and some of my relatives, their initial reactions were all negative. Let me quote this: "bakit mo naman kailangan magpakalayo pa para mag-isip? pwede naman mag-isip dito." Let me answer that. Paano naman ako makakapag-isip kung ang daming pakialemero't pakialamera katulad niyo?

Can't they just understand that it's me who's going to study and work for this career?
Why do they have to get themselves involved with other people's lives??
I don't like this.

I hope everything will be just fine when I get there.
I hope I will be enlightened; because I need to in order to get to something good.

Tag, you're it.

The last time I got 'tagged' was when some former guy friend from this all-boy school tagged me. If I clearly remember, it was about characteristics that your potential lifetime partner should possess. It was almost a year since I was last tagged, I think. Thanks to my seatmate who tagged me and gave me a thing to do with this snail-paced DSL connection I have now. Grrrr.

RULES:
“Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!”

Little known facts about me:

1. I have never seen any Harry Potter/Lord of the Rings book/movie. I just don't find it interesting. I never found fantasy interesting although some may say that fantasy depicts a picture of reality.

2. My ultimate dream make-over since I was a kid: have my hair curled. WAHAHA.

3. I can't sleep with a pillow behind my nape/head. I don't use pillows for my head. I hug them instead.

4. I never enjoyed junk food and softdrinks.

5. I videoke/magic sing almost everyday. WAHAHAHA.

6. I joined a singing and dancing contest in the village when I was 5. I sang and danced "Barbie Girl" by Aqua(?) WAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

7. When I was a kid, I was very fond of playing rough games with pets. Before, there was a stray kitten coming over in our house every afternoon and everytime I'd see her, I'd grab her with my small hands and throw her in the big pail full of water. Once she jumped off the pail and bit my wrist and all I did way back them was to laugh. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

8. I don't like bald people. NO BALD PEOPLE PLEASE. Sorry.

9. I can sleep 1 1/2 days straight with no headaches after waking up--and could still sleep again after 6 hours.

10. Recently, I have been experiencing random bouts of schizophrenia. It's bad, I tell you.

I'M TAGGING EVERYONE.