Envy

I was unknowledgable that STC is today. Okay, wala talaga akong kaalam-alam na ibibigay yung mga papel ngayon.

I am disappointed. I don't know what happened. I've studied hard. I never do my homeworks at school before the period. I have been very studious. What happened? Everything turned out to be the unexpected. Yes. I was so terrified to see my Computer Education mark. That's what I call really awful.

This week's hell. Yes, I know I have said that a lot of times in my previous entries. It is. Excruciating marks. Am I more effective if I'm on the verge of my moments of delinquency? Shall I try being on the verge of it?

Here's another thing. Nobody from our class made it to the top 20 of our batch. What's wrong?

My girl's name is posted on the rolling board. I texted her a while ago and congratulated her. She's such a brilliant ass. Woohoo.

It's show time. No time to waste. Got to work hardest.

Back

I'll be back to school tomorrow. There's no choice, I need to. I've been missing a lot thought it's only 3 days. What's the use of being absent? There's no use anyway. My situation's not getting better. Maybe I've got Dengue again. I'll be having my blood test tomorrow after school to see. If ever, goodbye, ACET. :(

Anyway, I'm kinda pissed tonight. Actually at this moment of typing. Something just broke. As in literally broke. It's the angel fountain I had for my birthday when I was grade five. Yeah. Angel fountain na 'yung pang decoration sa house. I requested that when we went to some homeworld place because I am really amazed by fountain things like that. Weird, noh? So why am I pissed? Well, aside from I treasure my things, I really really think it's already getting overboard. This is not the first time our helper broke something. And hello, why does it have to be always my thing? Come on. I'm so unfortunate. Last month, she also broke something. It's a double-shot espresso Starbucks glass that someone gave me in christmas last last year I think. Okay, it's always gifts. And our helper was crying a while ago because she can't pay for it daw. Nako. Wala na nga akong sinabi eh. I was just here, typing, silent, and letting her clean up her mess. Is that cruel? Not at all. Okay, umuwi na siya kasi hindi naman siya stay-in dito.

Good thing that the English presentation was moved on Monday. I haven't met my group yet and as their leader, I am very guilty for wasting time last week. Ngayon, wala pa kaming nagagawa. Kami nalang siguro ang group na wala pang practises. Nakakahiya sa kanila. Sheesh. I am a bad leader. I also feel sorry for my groupmates in club because it was really a bad Tempura we made yesterday and I was mean towards them, I guess. I am very sorry to all of them, especially to Erica because she was making me smile yesterday and I gave her a frown. :(

All bad. :(

Oh, SHSians, pls greet SHEILA MAE LIWANAG because it's her birthday on Saturday, September 9! Love you, Sheila Mae taray. :D

Apathy Building

I'm out of school. Wow, this is the first time I used that term. Out of school. Great. Fantastic.

Yeah, I am out of school for a total of 2 days now. Unfortunately, I have to get back later even though I am feverish because of the stupid club. Blech. We're having Tempura for today and surprise! I am bringing the main ingredient: THE PRAWN. Whoa. The Prawn rhymes with The Dawn. Haha. Fool. Whatever.

Being out of school is actually fun. It brings more fun than sem-breaks do. Ehem. The ultimate "sem-break" of the school is nearing because October 28--onwards is nearing. October 31's nearing. Woohoo. Who's turning sixteen? ^_^

Okay, so back to the out-of-school blech. I have been sick for a total of 5 days now. I went to school last Monday because I do not want to miss classes. I know the burden brought by missing classes. I also attended my classes last Monday because I need to participate in the Eco-Song practise. So there. I was fetched in school at around 7:15 and it was raining really hard that time. My legs were really aching I don't know why. So there. Chilly weather + muscle pain + slight fever + stress = high fever. Last week's very loose for us seniors. I was too idle. That's why I hate being idle. I get to lose my reserved energy for all the 4th-year "adventures". Blah. Corny.

There's one thing I realized while I was resting on my big bed. Being out of school lets someone be apathetic. I undoubtedly developed apathy towards school and everything related to it. I tried to be productive these days but as usual, I ended up sleeping. Well, I need sleep. :) Now I know why the so-called out-of-school youth love being out of school.

Rawr. I semi-hated my club. I am supposed to go back to school tomorrow but because of it, I have to go back today. Oh I wanna savor this little rest time of mine. My life's so boring. It's always home--school--home--school for me. I've been living this life for 12 years and probably for the next 10 years, too; since there's a plan of entering med school. 10 more boring and draining years to come.

By the way, ACET's nearing. It's next Sunday. Great. Mental torture once again. Speaking of school, I browsed through my "dream med school"'s website and I found this:

Required Course
1. Biology: one year with laboratory experience.
Courses taken should deal with the cellular and molecular aspects as well as the
structure and function of living organisms. Advanced placement credits cannot be
used to satisfy this requirement; upper level courses should be taken if granted
advanced placement credits.
2. Chemistry: two years with laboratory
experience. Full year courses in general (or inorganic) and organic chemistry
generally meet this requirement. A one semester course in organic chemistry
which covers the relevant material supplemented by a semester course in
biochemistry may substitute for the traditional year of organic chemistry. We
will consider other options that adequately prepare students for the study of
biochemistry and molecular biology in medical school. Advanced placement credits
which enable a student to take an upper level course may be used to meet one
semester of this requirement.
3. Physics: one year. Advanced placement
credits which enable a student to take an upper level course may be used to meet
one semester of this requirement.
4. Mathematics: one year of calculus.
Advanced placement credits may satisfy this requirement (Calculus AB - 1
semester, Calculus BC - 2 semesters). A course in statistics does not meet this
requirement.
5. Expository Writing: one year. Writing skills are important
for the study and practice of medicine. This requirement may be met with any
non-science courses that involve substantial experience in expository writing.
Advanced placement credits cannot be used to satisfy this requirement.
6. Additional requirements for the HST Program: Requirements are the same as above except that calculus including differential equations and one year of
calculus-based physics in college are required. A course in biochemistry is
strongly encouraged before matriculation.

and not only that, there's something I found really rawr-ing:

Supplemented their education with at least one year of college or university training in the United States or Canada if they have completed academic work outside the United States or Canada. (Foreign students who do not have a baccalaureate or advanced degree from an institution in the United States or Canada are rarely accepted for admission.)

So there's 14 more years of boring life if ever. And more additional units to take in college since I chose other medical courses. Grrrrr. More Math units.