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Since I was a kid, I have never known any other college. It was put to mind by the people I live with that I should go there. And I am destined to be there. And as I grew older, being there has been my ultimate academic dream and the process I have undergone just to be there wasn't as easy as the others'. But now I'm close to it, I just can't feel that I'm happy.
After all the CETs last year, I have dreamt of passing Ateneo but imagined myself going to UP. That dream I had never came true and honestly, that made me bitter because I just couldn't accept the fact that many deserving people passed and many UNdeserving people incredibly passed as well. I know that for other people, I may be one of those 'undeserving people', too; and it's just really unfortunate for me to not be able to be included in the list of 'undeserving people who passed'. Since there was nothing I could do about it and wouldn't want to force myself into an institution who could not offer a slot to me, I let all the bitterness pass. Goodbye Ateneo, I have never known you. The next week came and I came to school seeing ecstatic batchmates. Hey, hey! UPCAT results came out. Here I felt most terrified thinking of possible results since I didn't make it in the great A. And you know the rest of the events. Days passed and here comes a result again. Now, from UST. And wow, that was truly an ego boost for me. I passed both my choices. Degree programs which UST is known for and degree programs that people often choose but people also often fail to be qualified. I may have not shown it but I was happy and I looked forward to going to UST but you know what happened.
I am not going to UST Nursing, I'm going to UP though there were a lot of times when I thought of going to UST Nursing instead. There was even an instance wherein I was already about to confirm my slot there because I was blinded just by the thought of the monetary benefits I'd have if I'd go to UST Nursing. But I'm not sure if I'd be happy with all those monetary benefits I'd be having if ever. And I do not want to be confined in UST's high school-ish society. I feel that if I'd go there, it's like not leaving high school at all. I won't grow there. I need to be in somewhere where I could do a lot of things; where I would be part of the real society. That's why I chose to be in there.
You know what's weird? I'm not happy about it. I am not really happy. I don't know why. :( I'm even more excited for my DLSU friends who'll be already stepping to college this May. I wonder how I would feel on my first day on college. There are questions in my mind like what will I wear? how will I make friends? will I get along well with the opposite sex because I'm from an all-girl school? will there be 'introduce yourself' sessions in the class? Too many questions, only one day will answer. I just hope it'll work out fine. I wonder how difficult my academics will be. I just hope I'd be able to manage all with a little bit of extra-curricular. College is for real so there's no sense playing because if I'd do that, I'll be dead.
I have not done anything productive yet. In May I will. I will be teaching Korean Brent kids grammar in English. Those kids are the children of my grandaunt's Korean tenant in Ayala Alabang. Their past English teacher which is a Filipina by the way, borrowed 200,000 pesos from them and never came back that's why they asked my mom to refer an English grammar teacher who is trustworthy. I asked my mom how much would be the rate for each session and the rate is overly great. So why not? Haha. I suppose they know a little bit English naman because those kids are studying at Brent International School. International school, baby! They won't survive there not knowing English. Haha. My mom said she has met the kids and she told me that they're pretty fine and they just really need to work on their grammar and pronunciation.
I'll be 5-figures richer than all of you guys! 55,555. Haha. :)
HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY MAXIROSE BERNARDINO ENRIQUEZ! LOVE YOU. :)
After all the CETs last year, I have dreamt of passing Ateneo but imagined myself going to UP. That dream I had never came true and honestly, that made me bitter because I just couldn't accept the fact that many deserving people passed and many UNdeserving people incredibly passed as well. I know that for other people, I may be one of those 'undeserving people', too; and it's just really unfortunate for me to not be able to be included in the list of 'undeserving people who passed'. Since there was nothing I could do about it and wouldn't want to force myself into an institution who could not offer a slot to me, I let all the bitterness pass. Goodbye Ateneo, I have never known you. The next week came and I came to school seeing ecstatic batchmates. Hey, hey! UPCAT results came out. Here I felt most terrified thinking of possible results since I didn't make it in the great A. And you know the rest of the events. Days passed and here comes a result again. Now, from UST. And wow, that was truly an ego boost for me. I passed both my choices. Degree programs which UST is known for and degree programs that people often choose but people also often fail to be qualified. I may have not shown it but I was happy and I looked forward to going to UST but you know what happened.
I am not going to UST Nursing, I'm going to UP though there were a lot of times when I thought of going to UST Nursing instead. There was even an instance wherein I was already about to confirm my slot there because I was blinded just by the thought of the monetary benefits I'd have if I'd go to UST Nursing. But I'm not sure if I'd be happy with all those monetary benefits I'd be having if ever. And I do not want to be confined in UST's high school-ish society. I feel that if I'd go there, it's like not leaving high school at all. I won't grow there. I need to be in somewhere where I could do a lot of things; where I would be part of the real society. That's why I chose to be in there.
You know what's weird? I'm not happy about it. I am not really happy. I don't know why. :( I'm even more excited for my DLSU friends who'll be already stepping to college this May. I wonder how I would feel on my first day on college. There are questions in my mind like what will I wear? how will I make friends? will I get along well with the opposite sex because I'm from an all-girl school? will there be 'introduce yourself' sessions in the class? Too many questions, only one day will answer. I just hope it'll work out fine. I wonder how difficult my academics will be. I just hope I'd be able to manage all with a little bit of extra-curricular. College is for real so there's no sense playing because if I'd do that, I'll be dead.
I have not done anything productive yet. In May I will. I will be teaching Korean Brent kids grammar in English. Those kids are the children of my grandaunt's Korean tenant in Ayala Alabang. Their past English teacher which is a Filipina by the way, borrowed 200,000 pesos from them and never came back that's why they asked my mom to refer an English grammar teacher who is trustworthy. I asked my mom how much would be the rate for each session and the rate is overly great. So why not? Haha. I suppose they know a little bit English naman because those kids are studying at Brent International School. International school, baby! They won't survive there not knowing English. Haha. My mom said she has met the kids and she told me that they're pretty fine and they just really need to work on their grammar and pronunciation.
I'll be 5-figures richer than all of you guys! 55,555. Haha. :)
HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY MAXIROSE BERNARDINO ENRIQUEZ! LOVE YOU. :)
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