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Our mouse is really getting ridiculous. It functions well when my brother's on use and it gets stupid when it's my turn. There. There he is, just beside me, using the worldwide web-connected computer while me, I am here, using this laptop that’s not even connected to a modem. What the hell.

Why are parents like that? They expect too much from us as if there's no place for failures. I am not sure if I'm still taking the UST test next weekend because for Papa, it's a waste of time. Hindi ka na dapat mag-test sa isang eskwelahan sa Maynila dahil panget d'yan. Palaging baha, laging traffic, malayo. Nice reason. And here's another thing, if I don’t pass Ateneo, UP and because I may be not taking the UST test and wasting 500 pesos for the application fee, sa FEU-NRMF daw ako mag-aaral para raw straight med school na. Leche. WTH. Ayoko. Hindi ako mag-aaral kapag ganun. I mean it. Don't force me to study in a college where I do not want to study. Pwede ba. No, don't get me wrong here. I am not discriminating people from that school pero please lang, ayoko talaga. Palagi nalang akong sumusunod sana naman ako naman ngayon. Ang lagay eh hindi ako ihahatid sa UST dahil hindi na nga ako kukuha doon. EH. Gusto ko pa rin at magco-commute nalang ako or sasabay kung kanino d'yan. Basta. I'll take the test. I won't take the risk of not having a good "fall-back" university.

So, how was the ACET by the way? I made the worst essay today. I had the most hideous handwriting in the essay. Rawr. Blame the proctor for not telling how much time was left. He writes the time when there are only 10 minutes left. Leche. Akala ko marami pang oras kaya ang bagal-bagal kong sumagot ng Language Proficiency part. Ang baaaaagal. 10 minutes nalang ang natitira at may 15 pa ata akong numbers na kailangang sagutan. Pfft. O dali na, kaawaan mo na ako. Pero natapos ko pa rin at natapos ko yung essay. Ang panget talaga, nakakahiya.

ACET became harder than UPCAT because of the time pressure. Correct and effective pacing is a must; and I don't have the skill for that tool, unfortunately. I’ve been too used to reading and comprehending what I read at the same time that's why I read slowly. Oh well, at least, 2% of my English Proficiency test lang ang shotgun. Hindi tulad ng iba na wala naman atang ginawa kundi mag shotgun and then afterwards, magrereklamo at badtrip sa test results. Eh duh. Receive the gift of shotgun. Haha. Oops, walang particular person dito, ah. I'm just giving a usual instance. :P The Mathematics Proficiency was really a test of how math proficient you are. It was hard. What's new? I never excelled in Math. I did my best in the Math part. I tried answering the last items first. Hmm. I think that technique only applies in the UPCAT because in ACET, as I have seen, there's no particular order of difficulty. I was not able to finish solving all the problems kaya I just skimmed through the figures and chose the answer closest to the given figures. Hah. Sorry. I am not really well-skilled when it comes to numerical abstractions. I could have aced the math part if it was filled with problems we had in Geometry last year. Yeah. I love Geometry even though I hate Math; just exclude those circles that circumscribe angles. Blech.

The Numerical Ability part was such a monster. 30 minutes for all of those problems? Come on. That's a 25-item part, man. Why is it that ACET was too time pressured? How is time pressure connected with St. Ignatius, by the way? Hah.

ACET was fun, though. Fun way of torturing yourself mentally. Oh, I forgot to mention that Logical Reasoning was my most favorite part of the test. Haha. It was fun answering the questions there. People need that test. I am serious here. Some people really need that test; pati na rin ang practical reasoning dapat may ganun eh para 'yung ibang tao hindi baluktot ang paniniwala at kung ano-ano ang mga sinasabi. :P. Whoops, I am not mentioning a name here. Abstract Reasoning was a cerebrum rocker. Kakabaliw.

So there. I am not really certain on my perceptions after I have taken ACET. I can't conclude if it was easy or difficult. It seems that I'm apathetic towards the results of this test. I don't know why. Perhaps this is due to the excessive tension I had the past weeks. You know the tension and anxiety brought by paranoia of not having a good school in college. I was attacked by those thoughts the past weeks; and I can't deny that sometimes, those thoughts still pop out of my mind when my mind's brought to an idle state. My brain won't stop thinking about things and when there's nothing to think of really, these thoughts come out of it—making me pressured and worried.

I pray and hope that I'd pass this one and especially UP. I pray that I'd pass UP, Ateneo, and UST as well. It feels good if there's a wider choice and if you passed the school that you really really want to get in to. But as Mrs Benitez puts it: "If you don’t pass, so what?!" Haha. Yeah. So what? Why not spend just one year in a university that you really do not like? That's why there's an option called transfer. Get my point there. Pero, heh! UP pa rin. Please help me, God. Mother Mary please help me have a place both in UP and Ateneo, and UST, too. St. Ignatius, please help me pass Ateneo.

Are you already confused in what school do I really want to get in to? Don't be confused my dear, they're just adjacent and very near each other. Be happy and pray for me. :)

--typed in my laptop at September 17, 2006; 9:45 pm

Oh, before I forget. A million thanks to Mr. Talens (sorry, we did not have the chance to talk for too long) for lending me very important materials for the ACET. Hehe. I'm so sorry. I promise I won't do that again. Probably you won't see this pero thanks pa rin nang marami! :D God bless you. I hope we'd both pass ACET. :)