Hoy, happy birthday!

It was Friday the 13th yesterday. What now? Hah. I don't really believe on the 'curse' of the friday the 13th. It's an ordinary day, so what? I have an uncle who was born on a friday the 13th and.. he's not okay. haha. I mean, he's stupid and he must die. I'm serious. He doesn't make any sense in his whole existence. Wala siyang ginawa kundi mandamay ng mga tao sa kalokohan niya. Mamatay na siya.

Ang laki ng galit ko 'no? Oo, malaki talaga. Don't ask.

Ah well. There are a lot of people celebrating their birthdays here and there. It's only now that I realized that there really are a lot of people celebrating their bithdays in this month--October. EHEM. Octoberfest. Halloween. Happy birthday to me. I've never had a happy birthday, you know. I never felt happy when it's my birthday because it's always a time wherein matters here and there aren't that good. I have proven that a lot of times since I was a kid. I wish my birthday was in September nalang or November then it might be happy when I celebrate it. Seriously, the last birthday wherein I was really happy was way back 1994, my 4th birthday party in Jollibee where my kiddie folks were all there and Hetty the mascot kissed me. :D I came to watch my video of that birthday party when I was 8 or so and I really saw that delight in my eyes. The rest birthdays? Never mind.

Contrary to what people mostly believe, my life is not as normal as any other's. They say it is pretty uneventful and ordinary but well you know, it is eventful actually. Full of unfortunate events. Sometimes I wish to be a different person, living a different life, doing different things unlike what I'm doing now. When I

I should not be saying this because I know this will leave questions in the reader's minds. Expunge it all out.

Well, anyway my Leonardo diCaprio craze went back again. This week, I've been always online in YouTube, watching all videos featuring him. I've been crazy about Leonardo since I was six :) Now, I'm really really lusting to see Titanic, Romeo & Juliet and The Beach again. Woooh. Nothing beats his hotness, man. How I wish he maintained his slightly-skinny body that he had way back his Titanic days. Yeah, he's really fat and big right now but he's still hot and all! He takes my breath away (this is the first time I used this term) :D

I feel I'm not doing all that I can. There's this feeling of guilt in me. I've totally wasted 3 years in high school and I won't really waste this last one. I am already longing for the time wherein I'll be receiving my high school diploma and I'd kiss SHS goodbye. I am longing for that. I don't know if I'd be sad, teary or what when that day comes. For sure, there's one thing I'd miss about SHS--the people, my classmates, my friends. I know college is a big and wider world wherein people would be selfish and self-centered. But still, I really really want to graduate as soon as possible. I want a new world. I want to leave SHS with the feeling of fulfillment and satisfaction.

I've got to be moving. I'm a dreamer, singer, dancer, writer, biologist, leader, designer, hero--trapped in a hibernating sloth's body. This is not good. There's a lot in me, I know and I've got to let it all out.

I think I'm currently experiencing Superficial Sexual Relating. I can't explain what I'm feeling. All mixed up. I'm not happy. This is bad, wrath is dominating me.

Forgive me. I need a hug (for the first time), seriously. Please please please.

The video below is wonderful. &hearts &hearts &hearts. woooh. :X