Hindi na pala kita gusto...

I just finished reading It Happened to Nancy. The story is similar to that of A Walk to Remember's except for the fact that Nancy and Lew didn't marry and this is a true story, taken from the character's diary. I can't believe that those kind of life stories such as Nancy's can actually happen. However, she's right. Her decision of her diary, being published on public could really help a lot of people. Especially teens. Honestly, it helped me. I knew that AIDS can actually happen even though it super unexpectedly... And, basta.. I learned a lot.

I RECOMMEND THE BOOK TO EVERYONE. IT WILL SURELY TEACH US A LESSON.

I finally had my things with me from the locker! I started skimming the chemistry book ang highlighted things which I think are important. Damn. There are a bunch of stuff to be scanned for chemistry. I'm really going to start reviewing the easy subjects tomorrow. I hope that I would be able to concentrate with the internet, tempting me... Errrk.. Please help me, GOD. I need to review. It would be a shame if I fail even just one of my subjects in the exams--knowing that I had a lot of time to review. -- Anyway, who can review with the status I just had in the hospital?! And, the physician said.. I NEED A COMPLETE BED REST! ha ha ha.

I mulled over things and contemplated... Sorry.. HINDI NA PALA KITA GUSTO. I am not being sarcastic or something. Tama na. This is over. There's no future on that thing! There may be a past but, there's definitely a future on it. I'm just fooling myself, illusioning that those things could possibly happen.. Well in fact, that thing is concretely unfeasible. Those are completely unfeasible things even though sometimes, we come to instances that make it seem true... I have to wake up from this hott-ish nightmare and put in my mind that there's no future hoping that all those "stuff" can come true. You were never in love Anna Clarissa... Never. You don't know what that thing means. You don't know.

Black-ish brown spots are developing on my body. I don't know why these things are developing but, I should really continue taking care of myself and taking those vitamins. This is a sign of one possible disease related to blood. Leukemia for instance. That can't be. That can't be. I've got so many dreams in life and I am determined to attain those.

I've got to sleep. I hate going back to school. I hate it. I JUST LOATHE IT!


'til it's over.

Clarissa.